Writer's Block | Alyssa J Freitas: Writer's Block

December 5, 2018

Writer's Block

It's Sunday night, which means I neglected to write this blog post on Saturday morning like I normally aim to do. I'm currently in a hotel room in DC and just finished up a full day at the ABA Financial Crimes convention. I came down here yesterday on the train and ended up reading the whole time instead of getting ahead on work since I'll be here for the next few days. Felt a little guilty about it, but I figure I can have one afternoon off, right? Right.
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I have writer's block. There are no big life lessons or timely posts I want to put together. I'm not a gift guide girl and it's a bit too early to put together my year end post or goals for 2019, so I'm in this weird middle stage. Part of me wanted to push this off for another night, but I knew it wouldn't get done before Wednesday, so I decided a rambling, stream of conscious post would do the trick. I don't know if I've ever done a post like this that will have no beginning, middle, and end...really no purpose whatsoever aside from meeting my self imposed requirement of posting every Wednesday.

It's not like I even am posting every week because followers expect it; I hardly think anyone would notice if I didn't post. And that's not a negative thing! It's just that reading blog posts is probably not the most important thing you do all day, so one week going by without a post from me isn't the end of the world. But I really care about my consistency. I take pride in knowing that I upheld my own bargain.

Random thing of the day: I ate a chocolate croissant for breakfast. It was quite good. So good, in fact, that I inadvertently saved some chocolate for later...on my face. I was oblivious for the first hour of the day and I interacted with a few people. I am shocked to report that not one person gave me the heads up, and I had to find out myself in the bathroom mirror. They didn't say anything. They didn't make any subtle gestures. Nothing. I think it should be a rule that everyone needs to tell everyone else when they have something on their face. It's just the right thing to do, people.

So in general life update, I'm on the slow path to recovery from a foot industry. I fracture my sesamoid bone (a little bone in the tendon under your big toe) and have been wearing a boot since the start of September. I've now been given approval to wear a sneaker for a few hours a day, which is super exciting. I've been pretty down in the dumps with this whole thing because I love taking walks and being out and about. Staying at home is not fun and I've been pretty much at home for three months. I talk about keeping things in perspective all the time, but I really didn't do a good job with this one. I thought it was the end of the world. And while I'm still not back to my mobile self, I am much better and am grateful for the patience of my family and Joe through all my complaining.

Work is going well. In the last few months I have come more into my own with my confidence in my industry knowledge and, while there is still far far more to learn, I feel like I can have a decent conversation now. I will freely admit that there are many highs and lows in sales, and I am trying to find a steady mindset to come back to to balance it out. Dr. Pelham told me this would be a thing. He was right.

Friends are good, but I don't get to see them nearly enough. Ally recently visited and it went by too fast. Luckily she's coming back for Christmas, so I suppose I will have to be content with any time we can grab. Casey and I have been doing so well with our FaceTime dates, and I got to see Tina and Austen around Thanksgiving. It makes me happy to spend time with my girlfriends and the scarcity of in person interactions is making me appreciate it all the more. Or at least that's what I am convincing myself instead of being bitter about busy lives.

It's crazy to thing that we are rounding out the first year I officially wasn't in school. Graduation does not feel like a year and a half ago - it feels like it was both too long and too short of a time to have passed. Like I mentioned, I'll be putting together my end of year post soon, but we still have a month left of the year, so I won't count it as over yet!

Ok, I think that's enough rambling for one night. It felt freeing and fun to just write that way, maybe I'll do this more often. I've been thinking about making a video of next year like I used to do for each semester. Maybe I'll make a video and do a rambling post each month to accompany it. Or maybe a formal life update each month. Hmm more thought is needed on that.

Leave a comment if you made it to the end of the this post. Or if you want more posts like this. Or if you don't want more posts like this. Or just say nothing at all and go about your day. Whatever floats your boat. 


-AJF
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